While in the hospital, we celebrated Trey's "un-official" Father's Day. Trey wasn't expecting any kind of gift especially since I had already been in the hospital for a while. Little did he know, I had purchased his gift back in March or April and had been saving it. One of the nights, he stayed with me I had my sister go to my house and get his gift and bring it to me on one of the nights she stayed with me. The look on his face was priceless. I bought him a Clay Matthews jersey that he had been wanting for a while. What made it even better was that I was able to buy a onesie size version. Now father and son will have matching jerseys for football Sunday. It's way too cute. To be honest, I didn't want to be left out and had to buy myself one as well. Now we can be a family of Clay Matthews' fans.
Like Father; Like Son
I had my doctor appointments today and overall things went well. His heart rate was good, his movement was good and things looked normal with me. I am 37 weeks now and our goal has been 39 weeks. We are scheduled to be induced on Monday July 8th if nothing changes before that point. The more I sit down and think about things the more my heart starts to race. I am realizing exactly how soon that will be here. This will be my last complete weekend at home (I am scheduled to check in Sunday the 7th), and all I really have is next week. I know time is going to just fly by. I have the normal first time mother anxiety over delivery and not knowing what to expect. At this point, my doctor is shooting for a natural delivery, but has made it very clear that if there is any sign of distress we go straight to the operating room for a c-section. I am ok doing whatever will get him here safely.
My real anxiety rests with everything after the delivery. The fear of the unkown. What I do know is that there will be a team of NICU doctors in the delivery room to assess him immediately after he is born. Depending on how he is doing determines if I will get to hold him before he is shuffled away. I know that after delivery he will be taken to the CVICU (Cardiovascular Intensive Care Unit) and Trey will get to go with him. There he will be assessed and within hours they will start examining his heart for a course of action. I keep mentally trying to prepare myself for the idea that he will be taken away and I don't know how long it will be before I am able to be by his side and touch and hold him. If I end up in a c-section I know this time frame will be extended. Trey will have the ability to Skype me the entire time he is with him, so I will have some sort of connection to what is going on with him. As I have said all along, I don't care what happens I just want him to be okay.
I am so excited to meet our little guy, but that excitement tends to get overshadowed with fear. It is at this point that our journey truly begins. Throughout this entire pregnancy we have put so much faith and trust in God and it's this connection that provides me with comfort. God has brought us this far and I know He will see us through our journey.